christ666's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Bitchslap Hey everybody, Thanks for all of your input, but for those who have held back on advice because I didn't want to hear it, please tell. suisilent99.signmyguestbook.com And as a final solution to the whole thing last night, I did the unthinkable. Before you judge on what it is, please understand first, that I am better than what I thought. Not to sound conceited or anything, and I've got to reach for what I want. And what I need. Elizibeth is one of things I want, but not need. Steve planned on asking her out last night, and I encouraged him. In fact, I knocked on the fucking door. Now, I think, 100% honestly, that they are very great for each other. It was the right thing to do I thought, Steve is the sweetest guy in world, and for her to miss and oppurtunity with him is absurd. I'm very proud of him to ask her. I'll move on, in fact, I'll skip on. With a bright smile on my face. I feel happy, because I'm actually back to myself again. I took a walk today, it was a great one too. I walked all the way to Sebree Park, and hung out there for a while. The entire time, I was smiling, it brought me back. There is someone I should apologize to, I feel really bad, because we really haven't been talking as much. She says that she never kissed him. Well, I kissed her. As much as she thinks I'm an insensitive asshole, it's probably true, but she has always tried. Nelapsi, I'm sorry. I have met someone who has helped me along the way, though we didn't last, we did as friends, and we should continue to. Call me, but not tonight, I work. Or just show up to my work. I think I'm going to put a song on this entry. I have to think of a good one, hold on. This love - Pantera If ever words were spoken Painful and untrue I said I loved but I lied In my life All I wanted Was the keeping Of someone like you As it turns out Deeper within me Love was twisted and pointed at you Never ending pain, quickly ending life -- (Chorus) You keep this love, thing, child, toy You keep this love, fist, scar, break You keep this love I'd been the tempting one Stole her from herself This gift in pain Her pain was life And sometimes I feel so sorry I regret this the hurting of you But you make me so unhappy I'd take my life and leave love with you I'd kill myself for you, I'd kill you for myself -- (Chorus) No more head trips How about another one? "Prosthetics" - Slipknot Even if you run... I will find you I decided I wanted you Now I know...I need If you can't be bought, tougher than I thought Keep in mind - I am with you Never left out fate, can't concentrate You will be mine! Ah, fucking you will be mine! Ah, fucking you will be mine! Ah, fucking you will be mine! I found you Leanin' out of an open window You laughed (my fingers clenched) Too perfect, far too careless I couldn't help myself - I just took you Dammit man I knew it was a mistake (You brought it outta me) Better make yourself out home You're here to stay You won't bother me...If you let me bother you All the doors are locked, all the windows shut Keep in mind - I watch you Never leave my side, never leave me, fucker Even if you run What the fuck is different? Man, I can't believe I'm doin' this Dammit man I knew it was a mistake (You brought it outta me) sign my guestbook and give me info, Love to all Flower 4:40 p.m. - 2003-03-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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