christ666's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Mad World, Fascination Street, Fade to Black Work: (see Love) Friends: I saw Penny today with a bunch of people, talking about her career and what's going to happen and what not. I felt really, really uncomfortable there. I didn't have the right to state my opinion considering that I'm not going to be in Drama anymore. Plus, Jacob was there. I didn't want to say anything that would make him angry, or for thim to think lower of me. Then I see Cami and Phil there, not that this is a bad thing, it's just awkward to see Phil since I haven't seen him in a while, and Cami...well, I just didn't think that Cami really cared about me anymore. We talked a little, so maybe I'm wrong. Family: My mother is back, and my father gets back tonight in about half an hour. My mother had a great time, which is good. My sister had lots of fun as well. She'd get really excited when she'd win, and when she'd lose, she'd just state, "FUCK YOU IN THE CORNHOLE YOU SON OF A BITCH!!!" I'm going to see the new Terminator tonight with my brother and his friend Nick. Band: I think Robb called me today, but I'm not sure. I felt bad because if he did call, that means we had practice, and I missed it because I was sleeping. I was fucking passed out, (drunk from Clear American Blackberry Apple Carbonated Water...ok, so I wasn't drunk) Emotional Status: I can't describe what I was feeling when I left Penny's. It was as if, I realized that I wasn't one of these people in there, or, I was shocked to see Jake, or even the fact that I didn't say anything. I don't know, but after I saw my niece, and went to Hollywood (see work) I felt a lot better. Love: Well, tonight was an interesting night. I saw Terresa (beautiful, funny girl I talked about in previous entries) there and I recalled back to my conversation with Hedwig yesterday. So I thought, hey, I've got nothing else to lose. So I asked her on a date. Unfortunetely I didn't sing Come What May to her to woo her to me, but fortunetely, she said yes. So, I've got a date coming up. Before I left, I started singing to her, but she made me stop (she was turning really red) But...to be continued Terresa!!! and for another song: I think that a couple of songs can be placed her. I think three will be good. I request that you read these, because these are all incredible songs. As for the first... .............. All around are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head, I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad These dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had And I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people walk in circles It's a very, very mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, Sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, No one knew me Hello teacher, Tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, Look right through me And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad These dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had And I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world ............. Ok, another song ............. It's opening time Down on Fascination street So let's cut the conversation And get out for a bit Because I feel it all fading and paling I'm begging to drag You down with me To kick the last nail in I like you in that like I like you to scream But if you open your mouth Then I can't be responsible For quite what goes in Or to care what comes out So just pull on your hair Just pull on your pout And let's move to the beat Like we know that it's over If you slip goin under Slip over my shoulder So just pull on face Just pull on your feet And let's hit opening time Down on Fascination street So pull on your hair Pull on your pout Cut the conversation Just open your mouth Pull on your face Pull on your feet And let's hit opening time Down on Fascination street ............. k, one more, a classic ............. Life it seems, will fade away Drifting further every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters no one else I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free Things are not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filing me To the point of agony Growing darkness taking dawn I was me, but now He's gone No one but me can save myself, but it to late Now I can't think, think why I should even try Yesterday seems as though it never existed Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye -Flower 7:36 p.m. - 2003-07-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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